Day 1. New Lisa. New thoughts. New body. My happy weight loss experiment.

Today I have started my commitment to become a different Lisa - a 7kg lighter Lisa.

This time I know that this is not just an endeavour of the body. I have lost weight before and then gradually come back to the starting weight. It's as if my mindbody rebuilds itself in the original image. I say mindbody because I know that my mind and my body are not mutually exclusive but an integrated whole that is Lisa. So if I want to lose weight, I must change not just my eating habits, or my moving habits, but also my thinking habits.

If I can't visualise it, I can't reach it. So here's my visualisation!

I've looked at several online / app driven diet healthy eating programmes and they all ask me how committed I am to losing the weight. Well, who would ever answer "not very" !! ? I mean, we all think we are committed, but that's because we don't yet understand what we are committing to. In order to change our physical state we must commit to also being prepared to change some of our beliefs, some of our habits, many of our thoughts, and unearthing some subconscious beliefs that we may not even know are driving our lives (and our weight!) So in wanting a different shaped / weighted body, I must commit to becoming a different Lisa. If you've read my book "Why Being GOOD Is Bad For Us" then you'll know that "to emotion is to human" , so this is going to get emotional! I must commit to having the courage to be emotional - the nice emotions and the not so nice emotions.

I'm calling this my happy weight loss experiment. Let's do it.

So last night, I started out by spending some time understanding what this commitment looks like to me, and asking myself WHY I want to do this... WHY PHYSICALLY, WHY EMOTIONALLY, WHY MENTALLY.

Also I looked at the word 'commitment' and 'decision' and wondered what they mean. For me this means that I CHOOSE to do certain things. I am not being forced or coerced, this is my free will. So now, what do I choose?

This is what I came up with :

PHYSICAL: I choose to lose 7kg (I know i feel good at 58kg, so as much as 55kg is a nice round number, that's my ego speaking and not my body :D)

because I hate myself being this big. I am filled with self-loathing.

Because I am not my healthy best self at this size. 

Because I have less energy at this size.

Because I feel uncomfortable in clothes.

EMOTIONAL:

I choose to feel satisfied that I am living as my best self in terms of the relationship I have with my body 

Because I don’t enjoy eating - there is always guilt attached.

Because I hate myself being this big. I am filled with self-loathing.

MENTAL: CONSCIOUSLY:

Because I believe I can’t meet a man being this size. I won’t be chosen.

MENTAL: SUBCONSCIOUSLY:

I believe I am unloveable 

So already we can see there is some work to do here :D

Notice the word 'chosen' under Mental Consciously. And the subconscious belief that i am unloveable. This has actually been revealed to me during a recent hypnotherapy session, so I now know that the heavy lifting work needs to be done there. What will happen to my mindbody when I can address that subconscious belief that has been behind the wheel of my life for the past Hmmm years ?? We shall see.

Follow this blog diary and you can find out along side me!!

NOW LET'S GET STARTED.

To prepare for Day One of my New Lisa programme, I have committed to keeping a daily diary on what i'm doing, what i'm eating, plus my thoughts and emotions in order to see the relationship between my food input / my energy output and my thoughts and emotions.

I am acutely aware that I choose wrong foods when my energy levels fall and when my emotions move in certain directions, so I need to keep a close eye on this and basically turn myself into an experiment or a project!!! :D

Hopefully then this will give me lasting effects by producing a new ME, and not just a holiday from myself. We shall see....

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